Happy New Year 2017!
Yesterday a beautiful double rainbow showed up at my house! Wow! I was so grateful and in awe as I believe the universe is always talking to us. Double rainbows signify transformation and balance between the ego/material world and spiritual/inner world. So beautiful and powerful as I’ve been working on this blog post for the past week all focused on achieving “The Rainbow Body”. Besides the fact I’ve spent a huge part of my time not balanced between the material/physical world and the inner/spiritual world. Honestly getting in my body and doing the work is my original purpose and I just keep avoiding myself hahaha! Now is the time for jumping all those hurdles. God/Universe/Gaia you simply floor me!!!
What a wild ride I’ve been on since my “awakening” in 2014.
Spiritual awakenings can be the cataclysm to the “dark night of the soul” as I discovered who I was and my life was entirely a lie. I was lie. Not on purpose but trained into belief systems, patterns, and constantly working out incoming karma as well as unintentionally creating new karma. I was born with unhealed wounds and all the players in my life were reflecting them!
I had NO CLUE who I was and if she was buried under there I was afraid to be her!
What will people think? I have a whole life built around a system of lies. Everything I knew as solid ground just got pulled out from underneath me. I was completely lost!
The world had told me be a good girl. So I was a good student, played sports, and was so nice I wouldn’t say shit if I had a mouthful.
The world said fall in love and get married. I did. The world said cook and clean for him. Make him happy and so I did. I became what he wanted and lost myself even further.
The world said be a good mother. And so I did. I homeschooled my children. I raised them out of town where I could shelter them from the harsh world. I tried to give them the best nutrition possible despite the obvious hurdles in the American diet. I worked overtime to be everything to everyone and I knew I was falling short a LOT.
And then God blew the cork on me.
Who was I? I was everyone they told me I needed to be. I looked for that praise of being a good mom, a good wife, a good friend, a good . . . . you name it . . . what do you need me to be for me to feel loved. I was working overtime for everyone but me. I had attracted a whole slew of “takers”.
I was a fake. I was a people pleaser. I was completely miserable in myself and this world.
Oh look at my social media with my happy family and our perfect life. You would never know. My smile wasn’t real. My laugh was not laughter simply a disguise. I hated my life. I hated my husband. I felt owned by everyone including my kids and every day I tried to keep up the façade. This is what they say to do to be “happy”?
Why am I so unhappy then?
Yes, that was rough to see and working through my own bull-sheet-o is a non-stop work in progress but I’m so much clearer and happier truly happy than I’ve ever been. Being and knowing you’re a mess is SOLID GOLD! I don’t think I’m alone in this either. So many light bodies are hitting the “dark night of the soul”.
Who am I?
Without the people pleasing.
Without caring what society says I should be.
Without the way I was raised.
Who am I letting shape me out of the authentic me?
Do I really hate my husband or is it my inability to deal with him that I hate?
I love my kids! But somewhere I started blaming them for me not pursuing my own goals. I never realized I couldn’t set boundaries for myself.
I hated the way this world works. The illuminati, the suffering, the oppression, and every other horrific way we hurt each other ALL of the time. I discovered that I had not been in my body for years because I would have to face so much here that I didn’t want to see.
Wow! I was running a constant slew of negative emotions all of the time on the inside and from the outside you would never know I was anything but “happy”.
Add in some wonderment here with the fact my new world involved experiences with energy that led me on a new path to discover . . . everything is ENERGY. 2015 unraveled a new consciousness and the student appeared! I am so grateful for how much FREE KNOWLEDGE is on the web. I am creating my reality and don’t realize it. My body is more than the physical body I learned in science. I have energetic systems opening and closing as I navigate life all of the time. There have been spiritual tests on my path I didn’t see. I am running programs I didn’t even know I was running.
Fear of failure.
I don’t deserve to be adored.
I don’t deserve to be heard.
I am not good enough.
I am a victim.
I cannot receive.
And more but you get my point . . . I am creating situation after situation with money, love, health, relationships, and life to validate my internal programs. HA HA HA!
There was so much more to this life than I had imagined! WOW! And if anything I had created a train wreck of reality and a painful state of being. All my finger pointing was turned right back around on ME!
2016 what a GEM! I’ve been applying knowledge from everything I’ve studied, my energetic experiences, and my state of being. Switching the programs!
Nothing in my life where I pointed the finger was the problem. I was and for the first time if you look at my social media you’ll see the true authentic me in love with my life and my family! Truly I’m so grateful for them because these players in my life were simply reflecting my wounded parts. Only in soul healing ME can my life reflect the shining light inside me!
These are the laws of the universe and we are all here learning and growing but we’ve never been taught how to look inside ourselves. The external world is created by the internal world yet no one had ever showed me this invisible world.
Knowing what switches are being flipped, when, how, and connecting the dots totally AHHHH MAZ ING! I recently went to a field trip with my daughter. The U of A Planetarium. There was a display there that I found a total treasure . . . well beyond the amazing display of crystals!
We hear of so many people that can see aura’s, chakra’s, meridian’s, the matrix weave, and fragments of energy. I thought the display really defined the difference that the simple switching of a light can do around what we see!
What is reality?
Is what we see really the whole picture or just determined by fragments of information reflecting at different wavelengths in accordance with your frequency and vibration? Or should I say running programs, unhealed wounds, karmic ties, and spiritual tests? When you press the button a whole new world of light reflects!
Our energetic/spiritual bodies are just like this but the energy is constantly moving and flowing. As we navigate through life, experience relationships, emotions, and situations these energetic switches turn off and on. This energy feeds our physical body or constricts it’s natural rhythms. That is the key to self healing and the purpose of life. Turning all of the lights ON!!
We must learn to navigate this world full of darkness and very dense energy while maintaining a high vibration. Everything in our world is by design to make us grow and deeply experience. We are ALL born with unfinished business to deal with, jump over, and learn from in order to awaken the inner God/Goddess!
This is it the time to heal our wounds, run the new programming, constantly keep all of our energetic/spiritual systems open ALL of the time regardless of the situation, end the karmic journey by putting all the puzzle pieces together on exactly how we’ve acted without compassion or in the world of judgement’s to put this jig saw life completely together. We just need to decode the jungle and learn what switches are running what light’s!
2017 is the YEAR!
What switches are you turning off and on that you may not be aware of?
Do some self-assessing!
Here are some great places to start . . . do some inner work here.
Self-reflect on what you may be shutting off in these energy systems by not operating in balance. Check out the positive as open energy flowing and negative qualities as blocked energy.
Journal repeat patterns you have found yourself in with relationships, money, career, friends, family and love! Use this as a tool to unlock what’s in your inner vibration and become balanced.
Divisions from Self-Love:
Make a list of all the places you criticize yourself and do not fully love yourself unconditionally. I noticed feeling what I call the “ickies all over” in doing energy work with people. That means this is something deeply rooted that they reject about themselves. Really let all of that anger, frustration, and guilt you’re holding for yourself go. Fill up every part of yourself with love for YOU just as you are IMPERFECTLY PERFECT!
Divisions from Loving Others:
Journal everything that makes you crazy about other people. You’re judgement’s against others are keys to you! Either it’s something you do and cannot see or it’s a spiritual test you haven’t jumped. Trust me there’s lot’s of stuff I do that I didn’t want to see . . . it’s human nature. But when you see you are imperfect you cannot hold onto judgement’s. Besides when you start seeing that karma wheel and you suddenly get to stand in someone’s shoes that you judged, guess what happens . . . COMPASSION. Or when you see someone just openly abusing you right to your face and you have to stick up for yourself when before you may have just muffled your inner voice . . . you get really grateful when you move from victim to warrior or I do not deserve to be heard to I deserve to be heard. Thank you for being an asshole so I have to deal with my non-confrontational self and confront you. You’re purpose on my path is so crystal clear.
Look at the physical body and work backwards. What part’s of my body are not functioning properly? What does that connect to spiritually?
I don’t want to get too technical. Just remember emotions are the map. Anywhere we drop into lower emotions during our day is carrying a message that we need to unravel! Become a decoder! Meditation is a huge facilitator in self-realization. Or you can hit that subconscious mind easily during life as there are all times we have where we are actually not consciously present. Driving is a really big time for me to unravel messages. Taking walks. Don’t make it complicated to look within or you won’t do it lol! If you have a 10 minute commute make use of that time. Every time you shower use that time. Shower meditations are awesome and powerful besides everyone showers already no extra time is needed!
What about right there in every situation you see yourself drop into lower emotions? Ask yourself why is this happening? What is this designed to teach me about myself that I’ve yet to learn?
If you feel like you need some help with assessing yourself I’ve got several new packages I offer to access your energy systems. Sometimes it is difficult to be realistic about ourselves. We can easily identify repeat patterns, lies, and illusions in others but we run around with a blind eye to ourselves.
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As the year goes on look for a wave of books coming to uncover your natural healer. One of my biggest missions is to make self-healing become a natural part of our lives. The initial tips and techniques may need to be learned as we awaken ourselves but healing should be widely available, easy to understand and implement, and within everyone’s budget!
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